“For the thing I greatly feared has come upon me.” Journey through a story of betrayal, the collapse of a “castle” of trust, and the hard-won path to forgiveness.“

Hey there 🤍, it’s been a while🥺; What you’re about to read is very dear to me. Kindly, find a seat and walk with me through this🫂.

Ooh, I forgot to ask… how are you doing, dear? (I hope all is well on your end 🌸).

🧲 The Law of Attraction

Have you ever heard of the law of attraction? “the idea that what you believe, the universe brings to you?“

It says that if you constantly anticipate something good or bad it will eventually manifest.

My story begins with hope, I believed I could conquer fear and negative thoughts. But in reality, I was living in delulu 🥲.

🏰 The Castle

We often forget that the people we let in are the ones who can touch the deepest layers of our hearts 💕.

I built my trust like a castle with a strong foundation, guarded walls; Yet I lived with the fear of waking up one day homeless, with no castle and no ground to rebuild🧑‍🦯.

What was supposed to be guarded became an open gate for attacks; The watchmen slept💤, and betrayal entered quietly.

📒My Notebook Before the Messenger

Today felt like a mirror 🪞; I realized I can do many things, but not everything needs to be done for people who refuse to see what they must do for themselves. I’ve spent more time on others than on myself, and that imbalance often leaves me tangled in emotions.

I saw how much I depend on others without a guarantee, expecting favors in return; That dependence made me feel unsafe as if the castle I was building could collapse at any moment.

Sometimes it felt like the walls were falling apart, and I had to run back to God for strength 🙏.

Through prayer, I came to terms with this truth: no one can do the inner work for me. Healing requires me to stand up for myself.

Tonight, I end the day in gratitude 🌸, thankful that I resisted being consumed by chaotic thoughts. Not every chaotic emotion leads to a chaotic moment. Sometimes, the wisest choice is to accept what we cannot control and hand it to the Creator ✨.

📜 The Messenger

When the truth arrived, it wasn’t shocking. I had always feared it anyways 🙂‍↔️.

The messenger explained every detail, apologized, and told me: “You have the right to be sad❤️‍🩹.”

That was the moment I realized I had never allowed myself to feel sadness; I kept standing “like a strong man,” hiding pain behind hope and dreams for the castle’s future.

🔥 The Anger

The collapse filled me with rage 💢. The anger was so deep I imagined revenge; That’s how heavy betrayal felt🤕.

Yet even then, I kept showing up, choosing good💚, refusing to let bitterness define me🤧.

🌱 The Forgiveness

The turning point was forgiveness 🌿. I spoke it out loud to those who betrayed me; That act freed my heart from prison “Healing is not caused by forgiveness, but forgiveness is a step to healing” and forgiveness is an act of self-love 🤍.

My silence was not punishment, it was healing and boundaries became my protection.

✨ The Healing

Now, I am learning to trust again, to collaborate again, to see good in people again 🌞.

I am no longer afraid of my shadow; I choose peace, laughter, and joy….Therapy has been part of this journey🫂.

🙏 Gratitude

Special thanks to Ory Kanayoge Ntore (Cabinet Ntore) for his unending support through this nightfall strike of my beloved castle.

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If this reflection on betrayal and forgiveness touched you, I invite you to explore two related pieces of my journey. In “What Does Your Mind Shout?”, “How I Broke Up with God 💔”

💬 Your Turn

Have you ever felt like the thing you feared most eventually found its way to you? Or what’s your experience with something you believed in, and it manifested in your life?

Thank you for reading 🤍