What’s up y’all my buddies ☺️, I missed y’all 🥺:: Hope all is well on your side 🫂

Well, I’d like to share with you my 2024 experiences, and a few things that happened throughout the year that touched my heart. I want you to read this buckled up, because you’re about to get on the rollercoaster 🎢.

Are you ready?☺️

I’m writing this with mixed emotions🥺, I hope you’ll get something helpful out of this story🫂.

Alright; my 2024 was all about personal transformation :: physically, emotionally, spiritually, socially, etc. that’s why I called it THE YEAR OF TRANSFORMATION 🌟.

On my side January started just like November😔, because everything seemed to be scattered🫠. I had no clue of what was going on in my life. (It’s quite shocking😴, right?) I wrote blogs, and everything seemed alright to someone who really didn’t know what was going on on the inside💔.

Starting with December 2023, I prayed🛐 saying “God I really want to see you throughout this 2024” little did I know that God was about to transform my whole life🤍, from the way I knew Him, the way I used to see life, the way I was living with others, and of course the way I was living with myself🌟.

When January started I wanted to end 2024 so bad🥲, because I didn’t see the purpose of spending the whole year with a lot of disappointments😮‍💨.

I was not disappointed because of some sort of problems caused by people, NO. I was disappointed with God🥴.

My mouth was filled with bitterness🙂‍↔️ “God why would you allow me to lose this?😭, Have I not prayed😑?, Don’t you see how bad the situation is😒?, Don’t you see that I really needed this🙄?”

That’s how the year started I hope you copy the atmosphere😌. My eyes were on failures😵, but I didn’t acknowledge the little things that made me as a person😲::::: gifts🌟, passion🔥, love🤍, support🫂, people surrounding me🫂, and who God says I’m🙌.

It all happened in the blink of an eye😵‍💫, and for real I wasn’t ready to swallow every moment of pain that I went through😫, but the word of God says:

“I can do all this through him who gives me strength”–Philippians 4:13

The truth is, I lost hope in God💔.

Every single person who is goal driven understands what it means to lose 3 opportunities you invested in your all😴, and of course you prayed for every night and day:::: but I forgot that “God is not a human being, and He doesn’t think like Human beings😔.

“For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways”– Isaiah 55:8

After a while, some family friends kept around showing me how great God is🥺, no matter how much I couldn’t understand🥴, and for many times I pushed them away😮‍💨. They stayed regardless🫶.

The wrong turn 🚫!

During that period I tried to stay low-key with God🤕, but who knew that today all I want is to praise and worship His name😇?

I crossed paths with this amazing friend of mine🫂; she needed help I really don’t think that I had at that moment🥴. I kept it cool as a person who loves helping others no matter what he is going through😌. Playing the Hero/Ninja cards when you’re hurting😓.

The first question she asked me was “Can I trust you?”:::Man, I didn’t even know what she was talking about because I was disappointed🙄, and that made me feel like I can’t trust no man🤕.

“Yeah sure” I replied; but my next word was “trust nobody”.😵‍💫

Funny thing😀 “maybe I’m the nobody” she told me.

Cutting the story short, I tried to help with all I had while bleeding on the inside with my own struggle🩸. I’m about to make what I thought would be a wrong turn🚫, but later saved my entire life from everything I was dealing with🛐.

“Do to others as you would have them do to you”–LUKE 6:31

Helping someone isn’t the easy route you can take when you have your own burdens😮‍💨, and thinking of controlling every situation😫. I chose to take that path for the sake of saving someone’s life 🙌::::wait, I thought that I was going to do everything it takes but I later realized that you couldn’t be the champ and call God at your rescue 🛟 .

You either let Him control your situation, or control your situation🙌. Otherwise if you try to do it on your own you’ll badly fail a thousand times🥴.

As an escape plan trying to get away from her, this happened–“what if we start praying for 10 minutes every evening?” I asked her. Well, I thought she was going to break the deal and withdraw the request but she was so desperate for the love of God🥺.

After the next few weeks, “what if we start going to PUSH PRAYER?” Because she doesn’t share the same religion as mine, I thought she couldn’t accept😓. Fortunately, she didn’t turn it down🙌. (PUSH stands for “pray until something happens”, a prayer moment that happens every Friday at CLM from 6pm to 7 pm) this has changed so many lives including mine🛐.

So, we started praying (remember I didn’t really want to do all the prayer stuff because I was still hurting), but for the sake of helping someone I had to🙌:::: I wish I knew that I was helping myself too🥴.

A lot happened during that journey, I found myself falling in love again with God🤍; but He had to deal with the controlling part🙂‍↔️, the anxieties😴, the worries😮‍💨, the hurt💔, the parts that were making me hold back😵‍💫.

Mind that I was seeing God in what He does not who He is😵, which led to my disappointment🥴::::

“For still the vision awaits its appointed time; it hastens to the end—it will not lie. If it seems slow, wait for it; it will surely come; it will not delay.”–Habakkuk 2:2-3

A short reminder🎗️that I was about to give so many things in 2024, but God knew what He was doing for my emotional intelligence😇, relationship with Him🤍, career, and the journey to greatness💪.

The first question is “how did you get out of everything?”🤔; My answer is:

And we know that all things work together for good to those who love God, to those who are called according to his purpose”–Romans 8:28

There’s no magic in between🙌, which means what I had to do is “surrender”. I said, Lord my eyes might not see, my mind might not be aware of what you’re doing, but I’ll trust you🛐.

When I started trusting God🙌. There’s a popular verse in the book of proverbs that was misleading me because I didn’t understand the word “SUBMIT”. Giving everything to God without holding back—-

“Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight.”–Proverbs 3:5-6.

I shifted my mind from “I know God will do this and that”🤕 to “I know everything happens for my good”😇, cultivating the heart of gratitude in prayer, praise , and worship🤍.

All I can say is when God wants to get the best out of you😇, He will let you go through things until you realize that the champ in you can’t survive without God🥴.

I found out this amazing verse, and I repented to God every sick word that came out of my mouth 😭::

“I had only heard about you before, but now I have seen you with my own eyes. I take back everything I said, and I sit in dust and ashes to show my repentance.”–Job 42:5-6

To you my buddies 😍 reading this today, I have a verse on my wallpaper and I’m sharing this with you to keep you high-spirited 💪.

“At least there is hope for a tree: If it is cut down, it will sprout again, and its new shoots will not fail.”–Job 14:7

No matter what you’re going through😓, never stop helping someone else🥺, never stop praying🛐, never stop praising and worshipping God🙌 —- Because He is Jehovah El shadaï💪.

Taking this moment to appreciate each of you🤍, you took time to read my blogs🥺— I appreciate my people who were with me through the thick and thin:::: Mwarakoze cane😭. If you have such people, hold them dearly 🤍.

I wish you a happy NEW YEAR 2025🎊, I’ve named mine THE YEAR OF GREATNESS🎉.

I’m looking forward to sharing with you the greatness of God💪.